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"It's your fault!"
"No, it's your fault!"
"How can it be my fault?!"
"It surely isn't my fault!"
Screaming voices all around me, I can't stand that noise!
Thrilling, pounding, hammering, shrieking sounds!
Horrible! Terrible!
Cover up your ears! Hurry! Put on some music! Loud music!
Loud? No, not again, please! Quiet music, just be quiet!
My head keeps spinning, doesn't know where up and down, right and wrong, left, no straight!
Straight out of here, that's where I need to go, need to be alone!
Lonely on an island, just me and my thoughts... wait, thoughts are flooding me, they won't stop!
Buried by this fuss about nothing! Ridiculous! Why can't you just shut up! Your mouthes, they keep opening up!
Nothing comes out but nonsense! Is that all? Surely, you got more, you always do and never listen!
Listen
Listen
Listen
To the quietness, the noiselessness, the absolute, utter and complete silence.
Like honey and milk it covers my soul, embraces my heart.
My brain is light like a feather it flies into the nothingness.
Sweet, sweet nothing. Sweeter silence...
Bittersweet, it tastes to me. Wrong. Something's missing. Don't know what. Don't wanna know.
Just wanna float on the stream of absent sounds.
Haven't heard that in a while.
Oh, grace, oh, mercy, what have I done to deserve this silence? So beautiful a thing.
Such melody and harmony in my very ears and tears of joy and hope...fully this will last.
Just one more note.

A genius left our world today. Sir Terence David John Pratchett, OBE, passed away a few hours ago. At only 66 years, he has already been fighting Alzheimer for 8 years. Terry Pratchett was the author of the Discworld novels and some other great works with Neil Gaiman, Stephen Baxter and many many more. His books are funny, modern, slightly satirical and most of all: inspiring. The world he created catches you and never lets you leave. You get caught up in the streets of Ankh-Morpork and fall in love with Rincewind, Tiffany, the librarian, the wee free men and all the other lovely characters. But despite being an amazing author, Terry Pratchett also donated a lot of money to save his favourite animals, the orang-utans and to the Alzheimer Research Foundation as almost every family experiences this disease at one point or another. He got knighted by the queen and got many awards for his great work.

I'm not a big fan of New Year's Resolutions. Mainly because I don't stick to them anyways. But this year I did set myself a goal. One that I really want to achieve and that I seriously enjoy doing. Reading. Recently I've got a bunch of books from my father's private library. I also had a few books at home I hadn't read yet. I've counted the pages of all of those books and they're about 18.000. Now, I'm not naive enough to think, that I can read that much in a year. I'm attending 12th grade at a grammar school and have to read books for school, too. But, if I split the pages over two years, I had to read about 26 pages a day. Which is an acceptable amount, I think. Obviously there are some days I won't be able to read at all, but there are also some days on the weekends or during the holidays, when I'll read a lot more than 26 pages.

Hopefully I'll be able to reach my aim and I'll keep you udated on the way and maybe even do some reviews on the books. Now, make yourself a cuppa tea, get real comfortable and have a little read. I certainly will.

xx

P.S. One resolution I'm also thinking about is being nicer, because I can be a real dick sometimes. Although I'm not sure if I'm able to manage that...